It is one of the hardest decisions to destroy an illusion after discovering the truth to its reality. Understanding that you’re vested in a dream that may never come to fruition. Actualizing the fact that you could fall entirely in love with an idea and in order to move forward you must eliminate its existence. A nonphysical concept with so many emotions tied right down to the very root of your heart. The feeling of guilt is haunting knowing you’re in control of its demise. There’s an ongoing war with the mind and its abstract design. The desire is overwhelming as we allow ourselves to get pulled right back into the delusional pattern we’re trying most to escape. Risking it all just to keep the thought alive. Believing in a lie due to fear of stopping your own heart from beating.